Sometimes life sends a curve ball your way and you just have to do your best to catch it in your hands and hang on tight. That's what the past week has felt like. With our little girl's early arrival, I've felt such a mix of emotions! Relieved to have the ole labor and delivery part behind us, but that feeling was replaced by worry when the next day, the pediatrician on call told us they needed to put her under light therapy for jaundice. We both ended up spending an extra day and night in the hospital, her in a blue lighted box with nothing more than a diaper and a felt eye patch over her eyes and me sitting in my room, fretting as mothers naturally do. Each morning, she had a blood test to see how her bilirubin levels were doing. Wednesday evening, the pediatrician finally said she could go home as he thought she seemed to be fairly stable. I couldn't pack up my things soon enough! There's nothing like sitting in a hospital room like that for three days to make you want to just throw the doors open and run!
The home nurse came the next morning to check on us, taking another blood test for DD's bilirubin. Result? It had gone up three points! We were told to just sit tight, feed her as much as possible and report to the lab the next morning for another bilirubin check. I tried my best to feed her, but she was so sleepy and didn't eat much unless I force fed her, sneaking some supplemental milk in her mouth while she slept in my arms. The next morning, her levels had risen another point. More of the same at home...and more worrying. Another blood test, another two point rise. This time, the pediatrician that had guided us through DS3's bumpy jaundice experience (a grandfatherly sort) took over and made one simple suggestion: put her strictly on formula for twenty-four hours. Going against all the advice of the breastfeeding community, I put my trust in him and followed his advice. Back to the lab Sunday morning and the result? A solid two point drop! I felt such relief from the burden of worry and frustration that had settled on my shoulders! He wants her back this morning for another bilirubin check, but told us we don't have to be so strict with keeping her wrapped in the bili blanket she's been bound to since she's been home. Hello, snuggle time!!!
So...if you're wondering where I've been hiding, I've had a little extra on my plate on top of the usual new baby things! Believe it or not, I did squeak out a really fast CAS card just for something to distract me late one evening while she was dozing and the three boys were tucked in. Here's what my hands put together in less than ten minutes:
The silhouette flower images, sentiment and the die cut butterfly are all black in color. The narrow frame and gemstone are purple. I drew the butterfly's flight path with just a fine tip marker.
I'm hoping for a less eventful week. My dear mother is here spending a few days with us and that, in itself, is such a comfort. Really, is there anything more comforting that the presence of your mother?
Have a terrific Tuesday!